5.9
It is more difficult to be away when you can confirm that there is someone who will miss you very much. Such a unique case this time around, as there are so many someones who will miss me very much. I’ve never experienced it quite like this; all these various hands outstretched.
5.10
Two years is a drop in the bucket and one week is an eternity. How can I expedite this? I want to fit as many columns and pillars into a single mile radius as I can before I charter a giant to tear them all down. I forget there’s satisfaction in waiting; I forget anticipation.
5.11
Not everything bad is bad. Undeniably, you might one day find yourself waking up in someone’s strange bed on the other side of town, a headache rattling around in your skull and the unnerving feeling that you’ve been entirely up to no good. He might be a leper or, at the very least, someone unkind enough to not offer you a t-shirt or a clean towel in the morning.
Other times, you might experience a subtle and miraculous shift in these motions, a parallel that confirms what you’ve always believed, which is that not everything is as bad as it could be. It might be a beautiful bed, comfortable and plush. He might be a generous host.
5.12
5.13
I guess I just wanted it to be better. I’m still trying to figure out what I mean by that.
—
Poetry practice - May
We kept on like nothing
happened, you pretended
not to notice my skirt
tucked into my tights
Doesn’t it always go
something like that?
You still regard me
as dream girl—
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